Happy Monday followers and readers! I haven’t written since March 15th. There have been times I wanted to open the site and start writing but I knew my focus was elsewhere and that it was exactly where it needed to be. I will slowly begin adding blogging back into my routine but for now I am loving my focus being on building my career and my sober network. Writing is, and will, always be a part of me but for now, the best parts are being saved for private journals.
Today I celebrate 31 days of Sobriety. I began THIS journey on March 9th 2018. Comparison is the thief of joy so I won’t do the thing I do where I say how and why its different this time because I can’t put into words what my heart feels.
What I can do is tell you that I acceptance in my heart even if I don’t always like it. I have a growing relationship with my higher power. We are still learning to walk in stride and how lucky am I to have such a patient, loving, and fierce God?
The 12 steps is a simple program that opens a lot of complex feelings and thoughts but we are blessed to have sponsors and friends to help guide us through and keep us in our lane.
I have a pretty good idea what I want from recovery and what I want from life and I know an undeniable truth that it doesn’t matter what I want. What is going to happen is going to happen because it is my higher power’s will. When we cease fighting things fall into place so here in black and white is an admission of complete surrender. I can’t promise to always like what outcomes there are but I can promise I will do my best to accept it with grace and humility.
Also an admission that you will likely never get out of me again: I have no fucking clue what I am doing but I am doing the best I know how to do.
Now on the topic of what I am doing….I can fill you in on the happenings in my life the past 31 days.
I completed step 1 with my sponsor. I continued to grow my business and learn some tough, valuable lessons in the process. I took my best friend whale watching for her “bachelorette party”. Her actual bachelorette party is in Lake Chelan for wine tasting, it sounds exquisite for her and I am so excited her friends have planned something so lovely for her, but what is lovely for non alcoholics is usually jail or hospital time waiting to happen for an alcoholic in these situations LOL! It was pretty tough being surrounded by alcohol and away from home but we stood our ground and had a fantastic time! We got to see a whole pod of Orcas, bald eagles, Harbour Seals, Stellar Sea Lions, birds, and beautiful Washington/Canada back drops.
This past weekend I went to the 36th annual North Coast Round up in Seaside, Oregon. It was a ton of fun with heavy doses of experience, strength and hope. Yesterday was the last day there and we ended the day with a sobriety countdown. I had my 30 days yesterday and it was thrilling to stand among my peers and be proud of those 30 days. The combined amount of Sobriety in that room was 17,000 years. THAT IS A LOT OF FREAKIN’ SOBRIETY!
I will end on this note for now….if I can get sober during mercury retrograde, I can probably accomplish anything when I use the tools I have been graciously and freely given!